A post card was sent to me from Barcelona. A briliant picture of the Mirador at the Plaza of Colombus is on it. It is thus a good reminder of my own travel there as well, but is actually from my dearest ladies,,,,,,soon after I saw the card's behind, I found most of message were written in Chinese language and by three person. The lines show their excitement with the beautiful city by and large. And suddenly, I've got a pecurior feeling. I gave them some advice for their Barcelona trip, but I had never been there before this January, we get along with each other very well now but I did not know even their names 6 months ago!!,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, One of my friend used to explain his 'cosmic' feeling delivered by something called globalization. For example, I hope you are reading this note with some interest, and may tell someone about one or a few topic on it, yet, you may not know me and will not see me. This can be somehow a special thing,and my friend calls it 'cosmic'. To me, however, feeling it simply like the rule of cause and effect, or a chronological feeling. From the beginning, yeah THE beginning in an absolute sense, everything has causes. Interestingly, an sage in ancient India thought it as; nothing can happen without causes, and causes can be causes only with the observation of the effect. Therefore, the causes and effects exsist paralelly. To be honest, I am not that sure about what he exactly wanted to say. But I can assume that the phenominan called globalization is making this causality slightly more visible yet complicated than it used to be. And, even it apparently accelarates the chain reaction of causalities, at the end we definitely need a time in certain points. In my case, more than 6 months of time living to gether with the girls, have enabled me to have that sincere feeling to them. And 3 months of time have enabled me to look back the memory of the travel. I should not waste time, but should take time when I am supposed to do so, as usual, my thought is bewildering in such a way but with a certain gratitude for the lovely post card.

British people think they are paying too much attention for their politically correctness,,,,,,,,a book told me something like that. With watching a video clip at Blend, I was remembering the book and a conversation with my friends as well. It's almost back a year, when I was watching TV with Khalifa and Omar, my 'why' conversation (actually, I myself have noticed that too many of my conversation starts with 'why?', sometimes just rhetorical, sometimes I really want to know the answer.) 'Why on British TV programme, most of guys look that boring, perhaps more boring than people on the street?' In that case, my question was half rhetorical and half real. I myself expect to see somehow 'higher average' looking people on TV than in my real life, and didn't know whether British people think in the same way or not. Anyway, our conclusion at that moment was, 'People want reality on TV',,,,,,,,,,,yeah, I could accept that conclusion but only to some extent. For examle, if Beyonce appears in a TV ad to encourage us to buy something TESCO by herself shopping in one of their stores, I can imagine how ridiculous it could look. She may advertize some cosmetics things, and say 'with this highlightener, you may look like me!', that is obviously not true, in a sense WRONG. But at the same time, people may want to see something like harmless lies which are less likely to happen in reality. For example, we deserve to dream of having a colleague with a stunning look and cheerful personality in our work places. In a meaningless, light sit-com, our expectation to see that kind of character may be higher. Nonetheless, even when a person is supposed to look nice, the actors are 'mis-casted' in not few fictional TV programmes in UK. Interestingly, it seldom happens on Hollywood movies, and never happen in some countries. Then, I start assuming that it's something to do with POLITICALLY CORRECTNESS again. Some audience may feel OFFENDED when a person on-TV looks so 'different' from themselves. Thus, for the 'correctness' sake only 'politically correct looking' TV stars may be allowed to appear on TV!!!,,,,,,,I started thinking in this way. Having stated that, I don't think it is necesarrily a CORRECT thing to do. There can be someone with 'incorrectly' good looking, but has a gift for acting as well. Even s/he looks special, s/he exsists in reality. If people cannot have a chance because they are 'too good' to be 'politically correct', the concept should be no longer 'correct', but rather a populism. Not only about how people look, it can happen on some other properties of individuals. Thankfully, I myself don't have to bother that unfairness,,,,,,,,,,,,as I myself is a 'POLITICALLY CORRECT' person!! lol

Looking at the clear sky, I suddenly remember the fact there's only one sky. And however long distance we have, we are under the same sky. Not only is sky the vertical limit, is also the horizontal limit.

The song I bought today, says; 'That's just the way it is, things nver be the same,,,,,,,,,' I cannot remeber how many times the song was repeated, after 2 pac was shot to death, and surprisingly, it was almost a decade ago!! At that moment, everyone's messing about west side-east side or old school-new school kind of things. Indeed, there no longer be much meaning for arguing those things,,,,,I listen to from 2 pac to Outkast without thinking old or new, west or south. Yet, the chorus sounds paradoxically, 'That's just the way it is, things never be the same,,,,,,,,,' ,,,,,well,what you sing is an UNCHANGEABLE fact, isn't it?

With Antonio and Roy, I went to see 300, enjoying a brief break between the assignment deadline and the exam. In short, the film was quite entartaining. The story may not be as big as to be called an epic, the movie has a simple sterength which so many of recent films lost. It can be called a 'battle movie', but what I liked the best was actually the relationship between Leonidas and Gorgona. Yes, it was too simple. And can simply because of the sexual expression, but, still I think it succeed in picturing out a beautiful moment when a mutual faith lies between 2 different souls. The dinner after the film was as enjoyable as film itself with the only 'authentic' carbonala in Norwich. Grazie, Antonio!!

Finally, the spring semester is finishing. A long time has passed after I landed Britain for the first time, and now I am coming to the point of deciding whether or not go back to Japan. I used to think in this way; once I go back to my country, I would never be able to go out there. It might not be true, as every decision is in my hand, and that is totally up to how I myself think of things,,,,,,,,,,,I mean,the attitude, the view point is what gives my life a shape and limit. Even I don't think I am doing my best here, and knowing I will suffer from some kind of drawbacks when I start up new life in near future, I am strangely confident with what I am doing at the moment. Now I can see my problems, so the next thing I have to do will be just solving my problems. And by doing so, I hope I could find other problems on the way which lies in front of me. This may be a certain part of the meaning of my life. Including myself, nothing stays the same, and sadly, changes do not necessarily mean improvements. But my entire life may consist of these changes. There's no way to escape from that as changes are my life itself in a sense. But, at the same time I still believe that I can enjoy the changes, including aging separation, disease and death. I can make the most of those as a chance to change myself, to keep myself feeling fresh everyday, or hopefully, every moment. I am not necessarily the luckiest one in whole universe, yet I deserve to believe that I will be the luckiest at least at some points of my entire life. The desparately unstable and unpredictable nature of the world always allows me the possibility to become so, I think.